Tuesday, May 26, 2009


I have so much to share. Moon coming in to stay, me turning 28, and things I've been thinking on lately... but for this post, lets celebrate the past month of our lives.

TheDuckling turned ONE MONTH old on Saturday!

He's grown. We love him. He knows us and we know him.

I've nursed him every few hours... lots of diaper changes... lots of sweet bebe noises. I've had nervous times where I thought I wasn't producing enough milk, or that something I ate made him gassy. I spent hours praying for James to take the transition well. I've worried about making enough time to spend with each of my boys--- I've been patient. I've been angry. Some days I felt like a terrible mother. Other days, I've felt like I truly rock at this job.

But the bottom line is this:
In one simple month, our lives have changed. Forever altered. Jackson has made our little family happier than it's ever been. He's meant to be ours.

I'm so thankful to be here... at this moment... in this place... a mother of two beautiful boys... married to a courageous and tender man. I want nothing more than to protect my little family... to keep us safe from all harm... to keep us growing and looking up.

That's where my heart is today.
In this space I feel beautiful. I feel strong. I'm fulfilled. I'm hopeful.

Here is our precious Jackson: bebe.jax, theDuckling, stinkBug, Harvey.

So proud to be here, no worse for wear!!! I've got lots more to share... exciting new creative ventures that will be coming my way in the next few days... But for now, I've got a picnic to pack. A storm is rolling in. We plan to sit in the grass and watch it play out... clouds, wind, birds... then duck for cover when the rain starts. *Very exciting* no matter what your age!

Peace, love, and summer.showers,

Thursday, May 21, 2009


The laptop is about to die... BUT before I go to sleep, here are three pics from today.

Momma's tomatoes are starting to come in.
Oh! All the yummy things to make with them...

But this one was eaten in the most perfect way:
Saltine crackers, blue.plate, and a sprinkle of salt.

Beaux.Jack and I enjoyed the whole thing.

Oh, he makes my heart swell!

It's summertime!
Life is good.

Happy Friday, friendlies!
Peace, Love, and spearamint chapstick,

Tuesday, May 19, 2009


Hi friends! Sorry I've let more than a week go by without an update.

We are well.
I'm well.
Jackson is growing.
James is nearly.normal... but throws an occasional fit to test my sanity. Because, after all, a three.week.fatigued.nursing.hormone.imbalanced.mother.of.two needs to have her sanity tested twice daily for good measure. ;) It's all about posterity, folks.

Oh, and theHotness (I always forget about him these days) is well, too. Totally taking things in stride... with his usual Herculean efforts.

Our little(but bigger) family is on the cusp of finding our new.normal. Jackson is such a gift. He's even easier than James was... which is hard to imagine... but he is. Happy. Content. Beautiful. Because he is so good, he falls second.fiddle to his big brother. James is old enough to ask for things and get in to trouble... so he is still getting the lion's share of the attention during the day. This is where nursing is such a brilliant thing. No matter what, no matter who is hungry, thirsty, or dying for attention- I get to hold my little Ducking close and nurse for about an hour. Gazing, staring, praying, and falling... deeper in love with the tiny.two. *This cycle repeats every three hours or so.

This week is a big one for us. Moon and her boys are coming from Texas to stay the weekend with us. I can't wait. We miss them so much. I can't stand being so far away from her. But for three or four days, they are all ours!

I get my hair cut tomorrow! ***YES*** My appt. was the day Jax was born. Needless to say, I missed it. But my Duke is going to fix me up tomorrow night. I need it. In three weeks, I've lost 25 pound of my preggo weight... my maternity clothes fall off me- but I'm a far cry from being back in my regular clothes... my hair is LONG... and I'm all.together dissatisfied with myself. So this hair.cup will give me a mental lift, as well as a physical one, too!

Umms, oh- I'm doing some planting today. The weather is spectacular... windows open... gardenia breezes... airplanes streaking the sky... just beautiful. Some people appreciate 'retail.therapy.' I respond better to 'dirt.therapy.' So I plan to dive in to some moderate gardening.

That's it for now... here is a few pics from Lola, the iphone.

*Oh, I just remembered I haven't posted from Mother's Day... I'll touch on that next time.

Off to cook lunch.
Peace, Love, and begonias,

Saturday, May 9, 2009

How I got here...

Tomorrow I celebrate my FOURTH Mother's Day.

Of all the things I've done in my life, I'm most proud of this... being a mother.

Here are a few recent pics of my pride.and.joy(s).

I love them. I love their father.
Being theirs is a privilege.

Happy Mother's Day, friends.

Peace, love, and cilantro.

Tuesday, May 5, 2009


Today marks the 12th day that theDuckling has been with us. We've pretty much celebrated each day in some way or other. I'm so happy to have my non-preggers body back. Heartburn and back aches are gone! Voila! I can bend at the waist AND I have the ability to hold my bladder again! So fancy I am.

We are resting really well. Jackson sleeps so well at night- only waking every 3.5 - 4.5 hours a night. I can do ANYTHING on 4 hours of sleep at a time.

Our new.boy is quite the pleasant fellow. He never really cries... or maybe he doesn't have to. We nurse pretty much all day. And I love it.

I'll confess that when we have a new bebe, we pledge 2 months where we stay at home... away from most children and crowds of people- in order to let the tiny.thing grow his immune system. However, this time around, I feel so much better so much earlier.. which has contributed to me getting a little 'stove.up' in the house. We decided to sneak a quick trip to the zoo in. *Let me qualify- the zoo is right down the road from us. It's a tiny little place that is pretty much empty during the week days... so basically, it was a glorified walk. And I loved it. We all did. It was nice to get out. *Which allowed the opportunity for the first pic taken of me with both boys. Not the greatest- but precious to me, all the same.

James is doing better with each day. He and theHotness get out every day and do something special... like Chuck E. Cheese's, golf, errand running, etc. It gives me some down time with theDuckling to bond and oogle. Plus James is loving all this special time with his Daddy... and if you think about it- when else will they have this kind of time together again? Two weeks, every day doing something different- just the two of them... Something to cherish, that's for sure. Oh, and I have to say that James is so happy to have someone share the backseat with him.

Before I tuck into bed for the night, I have to share one of James' favorite new things: He's discovered me having to use the breastpump from time to time during the day. He's intrigued. Of course, I was terrified when that door opened the first time and I was hooked up to that contraption--- what would I say? how would he react? Wells, I was just honest and answered his questions- and JUST his questions when he asked them. The other day, he walked in (he's used to it now) and said, 'you know what, momma?' What bebe? 'I'd really like it if your nunus would make white raisins (yogurt covered raisins) and pbj's for me to eat.' You and me both, kid. Funny, that one.

Anywho, we are recovering well... adjusting as we should... and gearing up for theHotness to go back to work starting Thursday. In a way, I'm ready for him to get back to work- bc I want to regain our normal routine again... but then again, I'm going to miss his help and the rugged.good.looks during the day. He is the very best daddy... there isn't a single thing, other than nursing, that he doesn't do for them or me. Because of this guy, the boys and me live a charmed life really.

Okay, off to get the bread out of the oven, then bed down for the night.

Peace, love, and ice.water,