"Let there be space in your togetherness"
Being a woman, I can say that I have trouble managing space... in the terms of:
What is mine.
What is yours.
How to give to a marriage and still see the value in maintaining some individuality.
How to grow a bebe inside my body, allow my body to nurse that bebe into a thriving thing...
feed his mind,
create and tirelessly enforce boundaries, facilitate imaginations and dreams
and harness internal motivation to reach as high as you'd like...
Sometimes I throw myself so deeply into these roles that I love so much, that I feel as if I'm dissolving slowly from the the toes up. Dissolving
mostly in a mess.of.happy, mind you- but still losing definition that gives me shape. My husband loves the me of me... my boys run full force towards the me in me. They love my generous nature and my tending of them, yes--- but I know they wouldn't trade me in for the comfort I create.
So being last on my list of priorities, I sometimes lose sight on that age old saying that 'if momma ain't happy, no one is.' One example of this could me my love affair with mustard.seed.photography. Gosh. It slays me how much I love photography... raw, natural, sincere connections we have with the people who matter most in this world. The deepness, the richness, the magic. For me to capture that level of connection, I have to feel that level of connection with my work. I have to have enough of me to invest in each session/relationship/connection to walk away knowing I gave my very best during these magical moments to aptly capture them. It may seem odd, but it's my method. I don't know any other way to do things... nor do I want to explore other way. I'm true to myself and I will only produce work that lights me on fire.
All of this rambling to say, I've been overlooking the need for me to have my own space to process my work. You weren't expecting that, were you?
*This post is all about my office redo... I'm just not good at cutting to the chase of things!*
Before I realized it, mustard.seed.photography went from a little this.might.could.happen dream of mine to a full blown WAHM with a daily grind that has to be met.
Our family office is a little built in nook that sits between the garage and the boys rooms on one wing of the house. It's an efficient use of space! But because it's in a transitional area of the house, it generally houses cleats, fundraising chocolate orders for school, an abandoned dinosaur, a collection of mix.matched socks,
endless.we.have.enough.to.decorate.a.large.sports.bar LSU memorabilia from Marcus' football glory days, those store receipts they always give you that you never need/use, and junk mail. For me to work at my best, I have to empty my cluttered desk, root around to find that scented candle I splurged on, grab my water, and start up my pandora, and hope to muster up enough Calm to allow a little inpiration to flow forth. It has been a soul.sucking routine that I face everytime I sit down to start up my post processing workflow. Between a full time MSP schedule and running my household, I started to resent having to spend so much time in that catch.all.energy.zapping space. Even the scented candle wasn't cutting it.
So I decided to define the ME in that area. Afterall, I'm the only one who really uses it... so I started to transform the family space into MY space. My MSP space. I needed a place I could be happy and inspired to be in... I gave myself permission to place this project above monogrammed easter basket liners, new spring wardrobes for the boys, playroom redos, etc. :)
I'm a thrifty momma... partly bc I have to be but mostly because I really love to be. My style generally is an eclectic mix of things I love. Mostly vintage and repurposed things accented with utilitarian and interesting new things. With that in mind, I splurged on a few necessary staples and used my eye for spectacular vintage to accent the rest. And lots of things were actually from other parts of the house that work best in this space...
Here is the some.what finished product... I've got a few details to fine tune, but otherwise it's a huge shift in the right direction for me.
|The view from the hall entrance...|
|A few detail shots... love these little bird on a wire display clips.|
|My beautiful white glazed faux bois bowl... I've got a hefty collection of faux bois going that I'm pretty pleased with. This came from ZGalleries on a Houston Trip and use to be in my bedroom... found new life here!|
Peace, love, and honest.to.goodness ergonomic office chairs,